Yup. Bundle of Joy # 5 will be arriving in July!
I find it quite hilarious that my last post was titled Not As Planned.
Why? Because that’s where we’ve been dwelling the past month. Not As Planned.
You see, I had just given away most of my baby gear. And I had just come to terms with the thought of not having more babies. We reasoned that, with Micah going back to school, we’re probably at max capacity for a while. At least our minivan and 3 bedroom/1 bath home are! And though I shed more than one tear as I packed away baby clothing and wondered if a chubby little baby would ever wear them again, I had found peace.
Peace that got blurry real fast (along with my vision) when I saw two lines. Two lines? What does that mean?? I don’t remember??? You’d think I’d remember seeing as I’ve done this a few times!!! And how have pregnancy tests gotten so high-tech in the past 3 years????
So I did the only thing reasonable: shoved my head out my second story bedroom window as I cried and let the cold rain slap the panic out of me.
Two lines. A fifth baby. A strong-willed fifth baby who apparently would not take NO for an answer. No surprise to those who know our children. Or us. A baby who’s determined to be in our family. Even when we were determined to ‘be done’.
Apparently God has other plans.
And then I began to remember. Remember the gifts each of our babies brought to our family. The support showered upon us. The people who smile/laugh rather than cringe when we inevitably announce we’re pregnant. I remember how I’ve matured each time I welcomed a baby into my arms. I remember how I’m learning to nurture myself as I learn to nurture my children. How Micah and I work hard at working out the kinks of marriage so that we’re a more authentic couple. And consequently a happier couple. (I also remember the joy/agony of childbirth and have made a mental note to do some praying and positive thinking on that one!)
And so the journey continues…